depression as an opportunity for spiritual growth

my sister anne gave me a book titled above and here is what i read and wrote to my friend helen

there is an expression in zen

train as if your hair is on fire

what does that mean? it means dont wait get immeidately into the present moment and do what the moment requires

if your hair were on fire it would not be helpful to panic and race around in all directions

nor would it be a good idea to take a nap

what would be helpful???

get present assess the situation and move as quickly as possibe to the nearest source of help

and i would encourage you to pull out all the stops

dunk your head underwater
grab an extinguisher
smother the flames
yell for help

in other words
see a physician a therapist, an awareness practice and learn to meditate

i was in my little depressed victimized moments after work... sulking and reading. when i turned the page and saw the drawings of the man running around with his hair on fire and another of him lying on a couch with his hair on fire and thought thats me ...right now................and i laughed and laughed and laughed......pain can be funny sometimes ........god often must me laughing and crying at the same time

some drawings

TOO .........................................................

Today I called my sister Gen and she returned my call. telling me she had gone to a psychic in Chicopee Ma... the psychic said her medium or whatever said your brother is "too"..... meaning excessive ... ... too everything .... and that I shouldnt lift anything because I have a bad back that will get worse if I do... I looked up too as a word in google... it gave a lot of examples for the word ......... it can be too.. as in much, or too .... as in little or also....

Nothing about art was mentioned ......

weird I ve been working on my too muchness in therapy...... in following with this too much thing I have made hundreds of drawings in the past months that I will have photogtaphed..

The psychic also mentioned I give too much away and give too much in general.. which Is true .. I have given away lots of my art.....

To the Universe ...dam it!!!!!! I am working on it........ give me a little credit....Paul