auditions

I went to Parsons school of designs open house with lots and lots of schools there and tons of artists trying to go to them. Parsons adds up to 52,000 dollars a year it says in its hand book...... talked to the head of the fine arts graduate program .... i applied there 5 years ago and was put on a waiting list for the following year but never did go,, i bought my house instead...... i also talked to a professor at boston museum school.. who wanted me to start thinking installations .... then advised me to move out of easthampton immediately....
working two jobs and trying to do art is horrible.......i am beginning to believe the house is not worth it and maybe i need to move on..... and take the professors advice..... i of course could not tell the professor that.... i pretty much told him he was nuts and i just sat there cause i was tired......he talked for a good 45 min or so and made me feel crazy..too much information overload.... but the california schools there... shoved me from the san fran art institute to the university of california and to a design professor who didnt work with decoration.....i think they only like 20 or 30 something year olds.......... i guess this is how actors must feel on auditions....its pretty shitty....left one feeling that art schools are big corporate entities..... which they are... but seeing them from the outside one thinks...... oh schools what a lovely idea... and how noble .... but in reality it comes down to competition and lots of cash....... well i could be just a little jaded .... being pushed to a different school without them even looking at your portfolio is a bit disheartening......